Well I'm so deep, the whole world would be drowning. But, they wouldnt know it. Cause I'm that deep.
"I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see. "
Its not that the days are too short, its just that I'm too far. Far away from the life I love. It really did take me moving away from everything I loved to realize, I do miss it so so much. All I wanna do is go home. I dont care if I'm bringing these depressing thoughts into my life. Its what I want!! so I will. In 8 days. Be home sweet home. Its great, me and my mom have been understanding each other more lately. I feel we're getting closer. Which is so good for me, because we never have. I am overly joyful about that. I dont neccessarily want to be best buds with her, but I want to know that she loves me, and is proud of me. She doensnt even know how much of an influence she has on me. I am so excited to go home, and kind of start over. Its like taking a breath of fresh air. Away from all my troubles at school.
and yes.... I cant wait.
MOvies Movies MOvies. LIfe life life. stuff stuff stuff. I'm so deep you could swim in me!!
Some things I've been writing-
"When I see your shining eyes and your golden hair
My heart skips a beat and disappears somewhere
On a journey through rainbows and clouds, it dances all around
Singing its own tune, It never wears a frown
The story it tells is one of love and ------
The beat is keeps is one like any other
Bum bum ba bum bum ba
A sound you hear, you can’t help but dance
You, You are the stealer
and you’ve kidnapped my heart
And you can have it.javascript:void(0)
Please, keep it, Hold it close.
Ha ha.
There it goes again, Fluttering like a butterfly
Singing like an angel, Laughing like a child.
Through my dreams it skips and dances
It see’s your heart and jumps
Freefalling into its open arms"
That is my unedited version. Soon, I will fix it. but for now...thats good enough.
So Over the past week I've come to realization. I can't force myself to like something that I just dont like. Here's the story..... Well I have been going to school in Idaho and its a great school and all but I just realized that I am not happy. I am not enjoying myself. I love my roommates and all, but I just never want to call this place home. Its driving me crazy. I only have two weeks and a i just want to give up and go home. alas, I will survive these two weeks ahead. I know I can make it. But I have also come to realize that I might possibly want to transfer schools. UVU...here I come.....
BTW Thanksgiving Break was amazing. I had so much fun with my Best friend Mayli! We pretty much partied like Rock stars. And I got to know Kallie So much better. She is extremely cool. I never thought I would be fully comfortable around her but I am. And thats a good thing. Mayli- your the best. thanks for being my friend. I am so thankful.Your honestly my life. ha ha. If I didnt have you, I would probably be so miserable. Cause honestly, I miss my family, but most of all i miss having so much fun and being care free. I Love you dude. ha ha. so so cheesy. cheesy cheesy cheesy. OH well.
Peace.
ARielle.
