The Camera Speaks To me

Well I'm so deep, the whole world would be drowning. But, they wouldnt know it. Cause I'm that deep.


"I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see. "

Its not that the days are too short, its just that I'm too far. Far away from the life I love. It really did take me moving away from everything I loved to realize, I do miss it so so much. All I wanna do is go home. I dont care if I'm bringing these depressing thoughts into my life. Its what I want!! so I will. In 8 days. Be home sweet home. Its great, me and my mom have been understanding each other more lately. I feel we're getting closer. Which is so good for me, because we never have. I am overly joyful about that. I dont neccessarily want to be best buds with her, but I want to know that she loves me, and is proud of me. She doensnt even know how much of an influence she has on me. I am so excited to go home, and kind of start over. Its like taking a breath of fresh air. Away from all my troubles at school.
and yes.... I cant wait.

MOvies Movies MOvies. LIfe life life. stuff stuff stuff. I'm so deep you could swim in me!!

Some things I've been writing-
"When I see your shining eyes and your golden hair
My heart skips a beat and disappears somewhere
On a journey through rainbows and clouds, it dances all around
Singing its own tune, It never wears a frown
The story it tells is one of love and ------
The beat is keeps is one like any other
Bum bum ba bum bum ba
A sound you hear, you can’t help but dance

You, You are the stealer
and you’ve kidnapped my heart
And you can have it.javascript:void(0)
Please, keep it, Hold it close.

Ha ha.
There it goes again, Fluttering like a butterfly
Singing like an angel, Laughing like a child.
Through my dreams it skips and dances
It see’s your heart and jumps
Freefalling into its open arms"

That is my unedited version. Soon, I will fix it. but for now...thats good enough.

So Over the past week I've come to realization. I can't force myself to like something that I just dont like. Here's the story..... Well I have been going to school in Idaho and its a great school and all but I just realized that I am not happy. I am not enjoying myself. I love my roommates and all, but I just never want to call this place home. Its driving me crazy. I only have two weeks and a i just want to give up and go home. alas, I will survive these two weeks ahead. I know I can make it. But I have also come to realize that I might possibly want to transfer schools. UVU...here I come.....
BTW Thanksgiving Break was amazing. I had so much fun with my Best friend Mayli! We pretty much partied like Rock stars. And I got to know Kallie So much better. She is extremely cool. I never thought I would be fully comfortable around her but I am. And thats a good thing. Mayli- your the best. thanks for being my friend. I am so thankful.Your honestly my life. ha ha. If I didnt have you, I would probably be so miserable. Cause honestly, I miss my family, but most of all i miss having so much fun and being care free. I Love you dude. ha ha. so so cheesy. cheesy cheesy cheesy. OH well.
Peace.
ARielle.

I'm not sure how to start this out. I just read something that made me feel so sad, not for myself, but for her. You can get so close to someone, know them so so well, then they leave you. It kills you inside, you feel like throwing up, crying, and possibly even dying. This feeling can consume you. This is why I'm thankful to have a best friend. MAYLINI. ha ha. She is the best person i have ever met. HOnestly. No one will ever top the friendship i have had with her. We have so many secrets, and so many memories, that no one can ever replace. EVER! Music. "Music is the reason time still exists" If I didnt have music, I would be nothing. Music is a huge part of my life, whether listening to it on my Zune, blasting it on my Mac, or performing, Music will always have an influence on me. Music makes me think. I get influenced and inspired by a lot of music that i hear. Its just everything. Lastly, but probably the most important, is that i have a knowledge and a faith in God. I was sitting in my book of mormon class when my teacher said this, " Praying is very similiar to texting. When you text someone, you can't see the person, but you know there is someone there, getting you message. Just like Praying, God is there to hear you and listen. He can heal your heart and ease the pain. I've been reading "The Secret" Although its a very amazing book, sometimes its hard for me to take it seriously to the full extent. I know that the power of attraction is real, but i also know that God makes things happen, So i must always be thankful for the things i attract, they happen for a reason.
Peace.
Arielle.

I am really getting tired of people getting mad that Obama is our President. It is starting to really annoy me. GET OVER IT! Theres nothing you can do to change it. Complaining never solved anything! If you want to do something, than write your local senator or governor and tell him about the problems you think that are hurting our country. DO SOMETHING. Dont just sit on your rump and complain. The negativity is getting to me. Barack Obama made history. Whether you want to accept it or not. This is a big thing for African Americans, and frankly our country. Its a major step. Now if you dont like him, thats fine with me. But you dont need to bring down everyone else who believes in him. He is our president. Now lets work on Working together.
Peace.
Arielle
p.s. I try not to be negative. I was just really getting fed up.

 I cant really express it through words.

Jodi!!! She's my roommates. What a loverly loverly girl! This is the girl who's house we were staying at. This Pictures is of us acting like Freaks. The  boy is her brother spencer. we Felt the need to have a little bit of fun, after these long stressful weeks at school. ah. life.